Give me wisdom, You know just what to do

This one is a bit longer then what I usually write but I KNOW that I was supposed to write it. So, read on if you'd like. (ps-click on the song below and listen while you read....so good.)

"The Spirit of the LORD spoke through me; his word was on my tongue." 2 Samuel 23:2

 I am not kidding when I say it has been a WHILE since I felt like the Lord spoke to me. A LONG while....and that's extremely frustrating to me.  I took a "time out" from all of the "stuff" in my life to rest and relax. Whenever the Lord is quiet, I usually tell myself it's because I'm too busy to listen, or I haven't been asking. But, I learned so much from being quiet and letting the Holy Spirit just speak. The Lord was very clear on a few things in my life.

I give it a little time and wait for His promise to come to pass. So when it doesn't happen immediately, I begin to question. Now... I'm the type of person to always trying to figure things out. Always. And I have found that this turns to worry (yes people who know me well, I am admitting it). Worrying if I heard wrong, worrying what I should do, worrying when, worrying how. . . .well #1, if God has not corrected me and I have asked, then I need to move forward and stand on his promise. And #2, I HAVE to be obedient in my time of waiting.

I find myself saying "God, I have done what I was supposed to do. Why aren't they doing what they're supposed to do!?" ......I had to smile as I was listening to Joyce Meyer tell a story. Her story went like this... "I just felt like I was supposed to ask this woman to go to lunch with me. God had put it on my heart for a while....So, I asked her to go to lunch. She responded by saying 'Thank you for the invitation but I can't.'  So I then went back to God and said 'See! She didn't even go!' and God responded by saying 'I told you to ask her, I didn't tell you she'd go.' Maybe that woman just needed an invitation, for someone to show her love. I don't know, and it doesn't even matter. All that matters is that I did what God said to do." ....
....when am I going to realize that it's not how or when my obedience will get me to the promise...just that I need to be obedient to every and all steps God tells me to make.

Why is it that when God speaks, I have such a hard time believing it? It is because I don't see it happening in the natural. Recently, I have realized that having a child like faith and hearing the Lord go hand in hand. If God says it will be, it WILL be. No need to worry, no need to question.  God's proven true to this time and time again as I look back on my past. Things that I wanted to badly. I would spend so much time worrying about them and getting upset when they didn't come to pass. But just as sure as the sun will rise tomorrow, God had a plan. There was a reason it didn't work out the way I wanted. . . and I am so so thankful for it. OR those times when God told me not to do something. Well, I thought my plan was better than his so I went ahead and did it anyway. Every single time, I find myself saying "You were right." I'm sure He is up in heaven saying "Yes, I know."

God is our Father. So just as our earthly father tells us what is right and wrong and corrects us, so does the Lord. The Lord is all knowing. He knows what our futures hold, why would we not listen to his guidance? It is not in God's character to mislead or misguide. The only thing I have control over in this life is my obedience. I do what I can do... and TRUST that the Lord will work it out for my good.

"At that time Jesus said, “I praise you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because you have hidden these things from the wise and learned, and revealed them to little children." Matthew 11:25